I am an untintended motion...

May is quite the busy month when it comes to b-days...birphdays galore...Mom, Jan, Nam, Alex, Maylani, MayMay, Marissa, Cat, Kirk, just to name the ones that popped up in my head...sorry if I didn't give anyone an initial shout...you know I'll find some way to greet you on your actual day of celebration :)


This was our Mother's Day late lunch pic from Lone Star. Place was pretty good. Went bowling after, which was the first time my whole family had bowled together. Granted, pop couldn't bowl with us, but he chilled and watched and took pictures and laughed. Probably one of the best mother's days so far.

Of the busy life
I said I had more thoughts to write about in my last entry...yet all thought escapes me at the moment. I've been looking back at the last few weeks and life has really just been a blur. I have truly been the travelling man and just being here and there for a quick minute before zooming off to the next event. My friends are often surprised by how I am able to handle such a schedule...but just as often, I'm surprised by that thinking. I'm excited to do the next thing, because it's almost always with people, and if you know me but at all, you'll know that people are the source of my energy, and my happiness. To have so many people around me that inspire me, challenge me, make me laugh, make me active, whatever...truly makes me just full of enthusiasm and gas(not that kind of gas) and I'm able to just keep going. People make the world go round...I think that cannot apply to my life any more than it already does. Anyway, I digress...life has been quite a blur. Yes, I've been energized to be out just about every day the past 2 or 3 weeks, drive 600+ miles over the weekend(and that's w/o going to vegas), and just about ready for whatever came my way. However, so many things have happened that I find it difficult to even remember everything unless I really really REALLY sit down and think about it. All the more important to write, as I am now about what's been going on lately. I started to stray away from cataloguing the various events that were going through my life, and just write about the stuff that was on my mind. But then I realized that this is a journal...of MY life, not just my thoughts...but of what's HAPPENING with me. I want to be able to look back and read about what I did in May of 2009, when I decided to catalogue my activites as much as my thoughts.

Of the unexpected...
I saw Star Trek recently and I loved it. [POSSIBLE SPOILER ALERT! If you haven't seen it yet, skip over this section!] One part I liked particularly was the blending of time travel and that the future is never set...that everything you do constantly changes the future. That the present is the present and time can only progress with what is happening currently. Anyway, basically, life is completely unpredictable and things can happen that are totally unexpected. I like that train of thought, not only because I do not really believe in Destiny per se, but that we determine our futures with our current thoughts and actions. That's what makes life exciting..that you don't KNOW exactly what's supposed to happen. Otherwise, what would be the fun in that?

Been gettin slammed at work lately with so many things. I'm overlooking 4 projects that have perpetually changing schedules...and it's driving me nuts. NUTS I say! I think it's a test of my will and determination tho. Hopefully, I'll win it out. But as busy as work has been, I think I've been very happy lately. I've had the chance to spend quality time with the people around me and I just feel....good. Nice to have these moments in life. These are the times I need to remember when things aren't always so all rainbows and butterflies.

This quote I got from my friend JonNathan today on FB...
"Remember that for every winner, there are dozens of losers...chances are, you are one of them"
Love it, great quote mang, thanks! Just a little reality check that you can't always win. And that it's not always so bad...you're with the majority, he he he.

I am another cliche catchphrase...

This is hilarious...plus the first chick is pretty hot. The second one too kinda, but I prefer the first. This is a response to the "Giz in my Pants" song, he he he. If you haven't seen that one, look it up. I'm too lazy to do it for you, he he he.

Of being right under your nose...
Being of the absentminded variety, I tend to misplace things all the time. I'm constantly retracing my steps to find my stuff(when I don't put it in its normal spot), or constantly running back to the house from my car cuz I keep forgetting something, keys, shoes, wallet, cigs, chapstick, you name it. More often than not, what I'm looking for is literally under my nose...well, maybe not LITERALLY...but NEAR my nose. It's funny how you can be looking for something so intently that you gloss right over it when it's within just your sights. Maybe it's because I'm overthinking, as I usually do that what I'm looking for HAS to be somewhere ELSE, and not where I'm currently looking. I'm almost just going through the "search motions" and not focusing on the task at hand. Or maybe I'm just thaat stupid, ha ha ha.

Of the Last word
I remember when I was a kid, and used to play slap tag with friends. I would tag them, and then they'd try to tag me right back. Then, it would become this game of who ever got in the last hit won...obviously it would take forever to end, because we'd just end up being next to each other, tagging and trying to do the fastest possible tag back...and someone would just give up. It's funny how that translates int our adult lives... There are some people I interact with that I can never get a word in, edge-wise...i.e. always have to have the last word. Whether or not it's right, or even relevant, they have to be the last one to say something. I just dont' get it...and I know it's not for me to "get" per se, but I just wish it didn't have to be like that. Oh well, all I can do is just shrug and say okay...it's not worth wasting my time over. Right?

next entry...mother's day pics and other pics + more thoughts...

I am my irritated lower back muscles...

Today is mom's b-day. She turns 67 years young today...so hard to believe. She is a person of very simple pleasures and likes what she likes...so as to avoid her not liking some new place we pick out...we are going to dinner tonight to Thai BBQ, one of her absolute favorite places to go to...but little does she know that a bunch of fam and friends are meeting us at the restaurant. It'll be great. Just the perfect, pre-mother's day celeb before Sunday (can someone say, cha-ching? =p). Anyway, we are so blessed to be able to celebrate another b-day w/ mom...she brings so much strength to our fam. And yes, she can get a little weird sometimes, but she always makes us laugh, and we love her very much. Here's to you...mom! HAPPY B-DAY!!!

Of moments of clarity...
As I was driving to work earlier today, I was thinking about just how things were goin in my life and about work, and the various events that have taken place over the past few weeks/months/etc. I was thinking about how, even though I've been so busy, that I still sometimes feel like I'm not sure of what' goin on, where I'm headed, etc. I think a lot of the times, that's how we are...but then...there's this moment; that instant realization that you know where you're going, what's going on, how you are going to do certain things, etc. It's that moment of clarity; when you take what you've learned, what you know, about you and about your surroundings, and make a decision. I think it's these moments that we live for, these moments when we decide to take a risk, reach for a goal, make a sacrifice, act...whatever it might be - these are the moments that make our lives that much more exciting and what drive us forward. And it applies to any thing we can think of... The feeling when you get into that moment of clarity...it's a state of euphoria, so to speak. You're seeing things in a better light, you know things in a better light, you're living in a better light. It's just so unfortunate that these "moments" are fewer and further between than we'd like. But hey, what would we have to look forward to and push for, I guess...

Game 2 tonight...I'm starting to feel a little bit nervous. But at the same time, I have this clarity that things will be okay. They will be...they BETTER be... =p

I recently collected a bunch of fortunes that I got from cookies...fortune cookies, duh. I liked what they had to say(although they didn't really give me a fortune, of ANY kinda), I still valued them. They should rename them to advice cookies...anyway, here we go.
FORTUNE cookie say...Forget Injuries, but never forget kindnesses
I couldn't agree more. It's about forgiving your hurts, and the wrongs done to you...but always cherishing and being thankful for teh great things in your life. Let go of the negatives and focus on the positives...at least that's how I take it. I remember this one e-mail I was sent about Schultz(the Peanuts cartoonist) guy, and how he says to name the last 5 Secretaries of State, or the last 10 Academy Award winners...you might be able to do it, but it wouldn't be easy. Afterwards, he asks to name the last person who inspired you, the person who helped you when you needed it...etc, those are the people that stand out the most, the ones you remember. So make sure never to forget those good deeds that people do. It's what makes our world a better place!

I am the path back to square one...

Two weeks already since my last post? My goodness...it's one of those times when it just zips by right now...I can't believe it's already May...


The JABBARUNNEEZ (Pictured from left to right:
1st Row: Lou, Keno, Ryan, Alden Jovan
2nd Row: Joes, Jay, Kat
3rd Row: Alma, Belle, Kirstyn, Mahua, Christine, Viv)

155.2 miles of running(Originally 187, but there were some issues with the organization of the event), sleeping, cheering, running, sleeping, cheering, biking, laughing, picture taking, and so much more. Last weekend, we completed the first-ever Ragnar Relay - Los Angeles race! It was easily one of the most exhilarating running experiences I've ever had the opportunity to be a part of. 12 runners, two drivers, and 2 vans...it was a crazy weekend. Reminded me about SPOP...just being practically delirious at one point. But it was totally worth it and the company was incredible. I truly hope we all do it again...

I've been stuck in meetings all day long...blah blah BLAH!